Mind Wanderings

Have you ever wondered why it is that we continue to do the things that we know don’t make us any better? I hate the thought of me continually trying to get approval that I really care nothing for. Yet I always continue to search and try and reinvent and pursue all the approval of people that I think of as intellectuals. Who really makes anyone an intellectual? Are people just born with an innate sense of being able to enunciate their thoughts or do they continually strive as well? I wish that it were easier for people to just accept others and their own perceptions without judging. What makes someone be able to decide that they know anything about anyone? Each of us believes and craves to believe that we have something special that no one else can attain, right? Why is that? Jehovah did make each of us special and unique but in this system of things it’s more important to be part of a unity and a loving one at that than it is to be "special". Yes we all need to have our own important sense of self, but wouldn’t that be better put to use by us loving and caring for our brothers and sisters than in our judging of them? NE who, this is my angst on my life. I crave to be accepted by so very many and hate that I do, yet can’t shake that desire. My wish for myself is that I get over it, to put it simply. To have self confidence and self assurance isn’t that what we all want yet some seem to fake so very well. Ah to truly have that self belief.